Rushed back from my niece's 18th birthday just now under the excuse of having to let the cats back in, since it's raining buckets outside.
Originally I didn't plan on going, but I quickly threw some makeup on my face (which is in a horriblly irritated condition now that I removed it again, the skin around my eyes has been protesting against makeup ever since school started again this week) and went anyway to show some good will.
Man, the situation on my dad's side of the family has changed só much since my uncle broke up with the woman he had 2 kids with (they were together for 20 years but never married) and started a new relationship with another, and marrying for the first time. I think I already talked about that once before..
I used to go over to their house a lot as a kid, and Anita was my favourite aunt; she was really good with kids and we always did fun things. Of course I stopped going there as often when I got older, and then all of a sudden I had a new aunt (Karin) and a new niece. This year they renovated much of the house and I don't recognize it anymore. HD flatscreen tv in the livingroom, another one in the ubermodern kitchen, it's really something to be jealous of; they used to live in a condition likely to ours, not too leisurely but ok, you know? That's why I got along with their kids, they weren't spoiled at all. Well, Karin has a wellpaid job, while Anita spent all her time with the kids. So it's only logical they can afford these things now. When my uncle married Karin, we weren't invited, and at that party just now, I didn't recognize anyone except for some neighbours who never come to our house (even though we practically live next to my uncle). My mother was also horribly quiet. I just had to get out of there.
Yeah, we're a bit like the black sheep of the family, even more so when looking at my mother's side. It doesn't réally bother me since I'm not that family-focused anyway, but.. ahwell. I have a feeling it does bother my mother a bit, though. Her sister stopped coming to her birthday some years ago, but she still forces herself to go to her sister's because her sister will get angry if she doesn't.
Remember my birthday this year? It was on my introduction day at school, and when I came home only my grandparents were there, and they left again in a 30 minutes. I didn't see my brothers that day either, they just forgot. That was truly the most un-birthday like birthday I ever had. I'm not a birthday-person, but it saddened even me.
And you know what's the funny thing? When Sherely's 1st birthday was celebrated here, we ran short of chairs. The house was FULL of people. Family members I hadn't seen at my birthday (or my mom's or dad's for that matter) for years all of a sudden came over and stayed for the entire afternoon.
I'm not jealous of the little brat, hell, it's futile to be jealous of a baby. It's just ridiculous.
I don't know what I'll do with New Year this year. I'm completely open for invitations, it's not likely that my parents will do anything.. so I'd rather spend time with friends as much as possible during winter break.