I don't like Halloween (nobody here cares about it anyway), but I do like this season's colors. XD



Tonight I'm seeing This is it with anei_no_tsuki~ Looking forward to it~~

So yesterday was my first exam (Dutch) and it went ok, I guess... With Dutch, you just never know. It's a fucked up language. :P

Friday I have another exam (Japanese: listening), and then my autumn break starts. The week after that I have 3 more exams (Japanese: writing and reading, Japanese: speaking, and last but not least Japanese history), and then another week off, because my class doesn't have any exams scheduled for that week.

4 weeks of lazyness, yay. Well, I figured it might be a good opportunity to start looking for a bigger room, preferably a studio with my own kitchen and bathroom. I found one on Kamernet last night and sent an e-mail.. I hope it's still available; it's situated on my current cycling route to school and very close to a line 9 busstop. And the most amazing thing is that it's more than twice as big as my current room, but €110 monthly rent cheaper. Yup, now I'm sure my current room is a ripoff. I need to find something else as soon as possible now that I have time to move.

I'm looking forward to this weekend; I'm seeing my dear friends es_chan, littleflapper and joostmusic again! That's going to be epic as usual~
And the 31st I'm going to see the Michael Jackson film with anei_no_tsuki, who I haven't seen in a while either~ <3

I'll definitely meet up with my classmates during autumn break as well, since they all live in the vicinity of Eindhoven. (THOSE ARE MY TRIBE OF PEOPLE YOU KNOW XDDDD)

Ah, it's been ages since I've felt genuinely happy! The last months went very well, it's like I forgot what it's like. If only I could see my friends more often.. Damn distances and school!!
I'm so restless, I'd rather go out and do stuff instead of sitting at home, being lazy. Last night I did kanji for 3 fucking hours because I was bored. I can use all kanji for the first semester now. I also finished ICT. If only my pageturning in my history book went that fast. I'm still behind on it because it was delivered a month late. >_>
I've also been exchanging e-mails in Japanese with Kana-sensei, which is very good practice! She and Aoi won't have classes with us anymore after the exams though.. they'll be switching with the exchange students who are in charge of other classes now. I don't see the use of that, honestly.. I think it's important to develop a bond with your teachers, it's no use if they dissapear again after each semester.

I want to go shopping. I need a new coat. :|

"Do yuu like visual kei?! I am NUMBAA OOONE! I am NUMBAA OOONE!" - LOL!Miyavi

"YOU WANT ME TO FUCK YOU RIGHT?!" - LOL!Miyavi


Um, no. :P But Meevs, you're beautiful. Even though the teenage brats that call themselves your fans piss me off. :P

*hereby not implying that the majority of the Gackt fandom is any better, since they're supposed to be adults*

But hey, I had a good time even though the day didn't quite go as planned. +___+ Due to the inability to ever depend on the Dutch railways me, Iris and some other girls arrived at Tivoli Oudegracht (after going to Tivoli De Helling and finding out that wasn't the right place) wayy late in the afternoon. Esther had been waiting for us in line the entire afternoon, I feel so guilty about that. And in the end I was able to spend very little time with her. U___U

After a long wait in a horribly humid hall they started letting groups of people in, and we sat down on the venue floor, which was only a little bit bigger than last year's P60 in Amstelveen. Tivoli Oudegracht website states its capacity at 1000, but I doubt there were that many people inside. That's 1/8 of the crowd in the Makuhari Messe; NO WAY. XD

Anyway, wow, the Myv fangirls were ON EDGE. :P Any sign of movement on stage spurred them into action; they stood up and rushed toward the stage. Resulting in still another hour of waiting while standing squashed between people. Egh.

When the show finally started I knew I should've headed up to the balcony when I still had the chance. People behind me thought it was fun to start pushing and pulling in order to get closer to the stage, and the amount of cameras and cellphones in front of my face had me boiling in no time. Seriously, what the fuck is up with that? I hope they search bags and take out cameras and phones next time, Miyavi clearly isn't happy about it either. So after grabbing some closeup views of Miyavi I gave up my spot and searched for Esther and Marieke, but couldn't find them. D: So I settled for a spot to the side, outside the real crowd. I am just NOT made for places like that, I need my own chair, my personal space and most of all my bag with some water. And Gackt. :P

Not that the music was bad, no no. I liked it much more than the Kabuki boyz hiphop shite from last year. XD Does anyone know if this Samurai black stuff is compiled somewhere, like an album? I'd like to listen to the studio version of some of the songs. ^^

Yeah the music was good, but.. man, the fans. :P I guess you can't really do anything about them. They have zero respect, look horrible, and the majority is way too young to know how to enjoy a live. Plus, I've rarely seen such a dead crowd. One moment that stuck to me was when Miyavi blacked out/fainted for a moment and had to be dragged offstage. I wasn't fazed, but when I looked around all I saw was confused faces; they went silent and WAITED. Ok, wtf, I was apalled. xD I said to some guy to me left; "Um, this is the moment where YOU guys put in some effort and scream this guy's name." I heard some chanting here and there but it didn't last long. Man, what shitty fans. Sorry, it's not my place to get emotional over, but I really didn't like it. =/

We didn't get an encore; serves them right. So I went outside, relocated my friends and we settled to get out of there, haha. But then I had to say goodbye because I had to catch a train homeward; that was so hard. I badly wanted to stay and have a drink (because I'd already decided on not going to school the day after) but when I got back to the railway station my train departed just when I arrived on the platform, having been slowed down on the escalator by a bunch of old people who wouldn't let me pass. So I had to wait for half an hour and then at 23:38 I had the very last Intercity to Eindhoven. My parents had to drive to Eindhoven because the buses don't ride after eleven, and we were home at 01:00. My parents immediately forbid me from going to a concert on Sunday evening again and went to bed because they had to get up early for work. Can't say I blame them, really.

**edit** LOL:

Shisasu, I had a headache nearly ALL day yesterday. It started begin afternoon and didn't go away until I went to bed in the evening. And just now I woke up with another one of those 'too-deep-sleep-headaches'. My left shoulder also hurts.

Yesterday was Riona's birthday party, and on the way to Heerlen the stupidest thing ever happened to me. I sat waiting for the train and this guy (about my age I think) sits next too me, way closer than I'm comfortable with, and he started talking, but my iPod sound was too loud for me to hear what he was saying and to realize he was talking to me. Then an odd pair of people in fantasy clothing walked by and as I followed them with my gaze I noticed he was talking to me so I took my earpieces out.

"Those people look funny, don't you think? But those clothes you're wearing suit you very nicely."

I was wearing a large belt over a ruffle top and ruffle skirt, with a bolero and shiny leggings, all black. Of course I thanked him, and hoped he left me alone after that. He talked in a sugary sweet voice that reminded me of a pedophile.

Shortly after that the train arrived, and to my dismay he followed me and sat in the double seat behind me. Somewhere between Roermond and Sittard, he comes over and sits opposite me, for a short while saying nothing but then going "Excuse me, I have a problem, I wonder if you could help me?". He told some lame story about him miscalculating in his traveling schedule, that he probably missed his bus in Sittard, and that he needed to be somewhere at strictly 2 'o clock. I suggested he take a taxi and hoped to be done with it, but he went on asking to what kind of music I was listening to. By now in my head I was praying for him to leave me the fuck alone, and answered that it was the kind of music he probably would never have heard of. But he grinned and guessed it was probably Japanese music. Ok, wtf. He went on saying that he was half Japanese and going back to Japan in November for a visit to his parents. I gave in and engaged in a quick conversation with him, telling him I'm a student Japanese. When we arrived in Sittard he had to get out (thank goodness). But..

"At home I have a few books lying around that could maybe be of use to you, I'll give you my e-mail adress."

Hey, wait a minute. >_>

But I accepted it and he told me his name was Conan. I replied with my name and wished him good luck getting to his destination. Getting out he smiled back at me and I waved again.


Shisasu, was I glad he was gone.

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Riona's party ended up being fun in the end. I'm glad I went even though the atmosphere wasn't really fit for me (loudness, too many different languages (despite my fluentness in written English, I don't like communicating in spoken English and my German is horrible, and I just can't stand drunk people) but it was fun to see everyone again, even though it was hard meeting Lynsey. Not that I said a lot to her, I just didn't know what to say.. or rather, I didn't have anything to say to her. That may sound cold, but.. I really didn't. I think it's ok for me to confess to that. There were some other people I didn't know, but most of them were nice. I just felt a bit out of place because it was me between people I knew and people I never met, and they all conversated amongst each other in different languages, and my headache wasn't helping much either. And some of the conversations had plain embarassing topics that I wouldn't dream talking about. ^^;;
It took me very long before I loosened up a bit and got conversative, but I was fine in the end, thanks to my friends. :)

Too bad I was plagued by that headache all day, I hope I'm not getting sick. I mean, I just had a cold last week already. =/

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Edit #1:

"Gackt, a former vocalist of Malice Mizer and one of the pioneers of the visual kei movement in Japan, gave one of the most explosive performances of the night. Gackt rocked the festival with his powerful voice, hard-hitting rock tunes, exciting visuals and special effects."

http://www.koreatimes.co.kr/www/news/art/2009/09/201_52150.html

Bah, lucky Koreans. :P

Edit #2:



Wow, the drapery. Simply STUNNING. <3

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Edit#3:

Wow. Our yard is like FULL of butterflies right now. I took pics and I have a few where there's 6 butterflies. O_o



Haha, and they're driving the local predators crazy:




Long entry is long, sorry XD

Me and me notices lately. XD


Anyway, this is an important one.


First, I'm going to do a cut on my friendslist soon. It's nothing huge or anything, but I hate doing things like that because I don't want to hurt people even if they are not my friends, so if you would like clarification as to why you were cut, don't hesitate to ask. I won't explain here, because there's a lot of different reasons for different people. I hope you understand, I just want to keep feeling comfortable with my journal; see below for further explanation.

Second, there's the content of my posts. I'm kindly asking all non-Gackt fans on my f-list to reconsider why they added me, and whether they enjoy reading about my personal life or not. As I mentioned above, I want to feel comfortable about posting what I want to post; I can't do that if there's a possibility I annoy people with my posts. So, if you choose to delete me for whatever reason, I won't hold it against you and I will keep you on my friendslist if you are not included in the cut I just announced, because I do enjoy reading all of your entries!

I kind of thought people were getting the idea my world revolves around Gackt, which isn't true. If you were under that impression, you don't know me well enoughl; the content of my livejournal is simply the content of my livejournal, not the content of my life. There's a lot of stuff I don't write about at all, for various reasons.
So if you want to get to know mé better, I suggest adding me on msn. This goes for everyone btw! My msn is the same adress I use for e-mail; aurora_whitedragon@hotmail.com
So even if you don't use msn, feel free to send me e-mails. :)

For a while I considered keeping two journals; but then I would be doubleposting my personal entries for just a small select group of people, and I want to be considerate, but that's simply too much of a hassle. I want to keep this journal as I like it; full of stuff that keeps me busy, preferably unlocked and unfiltered.

True thing is that now that I go back to school, I'll write more about school and stuff that has to do with my studies. Maybe even interesting essays about the wonders of Japan, WHO KNOWS. XDD
But aside from that nothing will change; I won't get a boyfriend nor will I grow up anytime soon. :PP

This isn't a test in order to get rid of lurkers or non-commenters, because that's stuff I'm worried about least of all, it's merely about me being able to post what I want without guilt. So be honest. <3


This has nothing to do with this, but; the reason why I have internet is because I'm still at home. I missed my train this afternoon because my bus ran VERY late, which would lead to me ending up in my only class for today VERY LATE. So I decided against my conscience and went to stroll around in Eindhoven for a bit and go back tomorrow instead of today. Yes, I have to make the mistake of trusting public transport again and again. XD;;

Edit: Mmm~ I just ordered Dan Brown's The Lost Symbol which comes out on the 15th~ So curious~~~ *____*

So I arrived home this afternoon and finally have internet~ XD

Haha, this week is so weird. The Japanese class for tomorrow is cancelled again because Yamada-sensei is sick; I have to go back to Maastricht for two periods of JKL (Kennis van Land en Volk - Japans / Knowledge of Country and Culture - Japanese) that start at 16:30 and end at 18:00, and on Thursday my classes again start late (14:45). That means, either tomorrow evening I go home and come back again on Thursday, or entertain myself on my room for Wednesday evening and the majority of Thursday. Without internet and with a tv I don't understand. Hm. I guess I'll just stay, finish my homework and go in town to spend money. It's not the cheapest option but I'm already tired of the trains, so.. heh. :P

So far school hasn't been very educative, but that's good; I can focus on the same old "bonding with my new class". I already have a group of people I talk and spend breaks with, and I have very lively and entertaining conversations with them, so I'm a bit proud of myself. I also took the train back to Eindhoven with them today. While we were waiting for it to arrive I was caught by surprise by something. My phone went off because my mother called, and immediately people around me went: "Ah, Gackt!!"; LOST ANGELS is my current ringtone. I thought my classmates didn't know any jmusic at all, but it appears there are people who like Gackt. This chinesish girl, I can't remember her name right now, seemed quite enthousiastic and up-to-date, not your avarage random fangirl. I feel lucky. ^^;;

So heh, today my class had Japanese for the first time. It was fun, I think there's potential in the group. The part of my first lesson from 2 years ago that I remembered, was the group practicing the sound of the Japanese "r", and we did it again today. It's amusing to see people with a very "throaty r" struggle to pronounce it; the Japanese "r" comes from the tip of your tongue. It's difficult for a lot of Dutchies. XD

While people were practicing hiragana I wrote a "considerable amount" of Japanese for the first time in a loooong while, lol. I don't think I ever scanned my writing, so here's my um... effort:

( Eek... :P )

Out of the casual Japanese conversating we start with after the kana ordeal, the only thing that really needs refreshing with me is clockreading. For some reason my brain never liked clockreading, not even in Dutch. I embarassingly screw up sometimes, even in my own language. :PP

I forgot when we're supposed to start on kanji, but that's when my easy life is over. XD

... starting today Gackt is my new Japanese sensei. He allowed me to take a picture of his environmentally aware rat dog:





Haha, anyway. XD I'm having fun with Milou (she's already practicing kana as we speak ^^) and other people I know at school, so I already feel right at home. To bad me, Milou and Wendy all ended up in different groups. xD But we'll see each other plenty around the building in breaks and stuff.

My room also looks a lot better now that's.. um well, see for yourself. :P





(Can you tell I have no space left at home for posters? ^^;;)

Azusa-sensei from my first year in 2007 decided to stay, so I wonder if she recognizes me.. Tomorrow we have some surprise activity, but it's supposed to be done by 17:00 so I expect to be home at least by 20:00.

That's all for this post, I just wanted to write that everything's well. :)

I just found out that I received my student financial aid for August yesterday. That's a big relief, but I think I still have to go to the IB Group office in Eindhoven; I should've received a message stating I could pick up my public transport card 2 weeks prior to the date I receive stufi, right?

Well, I haven't heard anything, so I'm afraid something went wrong in their hellish administration OR something worse is going on and I might not receive my card at all.. erkk.. *crosses fingers*

Anyway I'm off to Eindhoven in a few minutes, this evening I will go to Maastricht with larosenocturne because tomorrow and the day after (19th birthday, yayyy~ %D) and I'll be on and off the internet because I have introduction at school. Wish me luck~ I'll be back Thursday evening and on Friday I go see es_chan in Alphen~ <3
So when I'm back I'll either go to Maastricht on Sunday or Monday; it depends on my schedule.

Haha so.. finally my debts are gone, and my life is back. XDD

I just woke up feeling all groggy and heavyheaded again because of a deep, deep sleep. :P Haven't had that in a week.

Seemingly, if I sleep on a normal bed (I sleep on a waterbed at home) my slumber is less deep, I wake up more often at night, and I also have dreams all of a sudden. Last week I had a dream every single night and I could still remember it the day after!! That's so rare. xD

Maybe it had to do with me being "disconnected" from the outside world, but.. haha I actually dreamed about coherent things for once. I remember I dreamed about going back to Japan on at least 3 nights. 3 nights. And all 3 of them included somehow going to a Gackt live again. Oh yes I'm desperate. :P I also dreamed about friends, and the rest I can't remember.

Now I know I rather sleep in my waterbed, all those Japan dreams were driving me crazy with the need to go back, heh.

*EDIT*



Ahhh man... the cattery where we got Phoebus last year has a new Maine Coon litter with the same dad, and there are these beautiful black smoke males among them.. My mother and I want one of them but my dad doesn't look ready to give in... what to do?... ^^;;;

I'm home, finally. :P

Sorry for the unannounced (ok I did mention it) absence; I didn't even have time to turn on the pc on the day we left, and I did take my laptop but that's not much of a help when you're in the middle of nowhere with not a single wireless network floating around.

Texel was nice nevertheless, as always. There's still sand from the beach stuck between my toes. I'll post some pics and a summary later; the non-stop ride home totally killed me (even the boat crossing bored me) and I need to catch up with a lot of stuff first. And pick up my tigers after six, I almost missed them more than I missed the internet, haha.

AND NOW I WANT TO TALK WITH YOU GUYS, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. XDDDDD




Fuck, fuck, FUCK the IB Group, btw. Barely weeks before school start they mail me that I didn't apply for stufi with them yet. YOU BET I FUCKING DID, AND A FUCKING MONTH AGO, YOU BUNCH OF CAPITALIST ASSHATS!!!!!

Put my last entry on private because it was embarassing, sorry if I weirded you guys out. I'm NOT a sap like that, just ignore what I said. XD;;;


Anyway, today is finally the day my dear friend littleflapper is coming to Holland and she is arriving tomorrow. Monday I will finally meet her after more than a year, and I'm so so happy. :DD
The prospect of going out the door and meeting my friends next week is so uplifting.

Yes, my shut-in days are definitely over when August starts, and it feels good! The first week will be all about Marie, I have a fashion show on Sunday, and the week after that I will go to Texel with my family for a week. And when I get back, I will quickly go to my room in Maastricht and have introduction at my new school. And that week is also the week of my birthday (I reach the astounding age of 19 on the 27th! *snort*).

When we get to September, it'll be srs bzns, and that's good because I'm very motivated. Throw as much kanji at me as you want, because my brain is hungry for them.


Also, LOL @ YOU's blog entry about his adolescent biker lifestyle. I always knew it. XD

I'm off to the new Harry Potter film with my onee-chan, and to see her off to Japan~

I'll be back on Wednesday. :)

Write the names of 21 friends you can think off the top of your head (either online or real friends or mix them) and then answer the questions. Say you’re guessing if you don’t know, but at least guess on all of them. After doing this, tag your 21 friends to do the same.

01. Esther es_chan
02. Silvana jainakc
03. Marie littleflapper
04. Jessica riona_chan
05. Joost joostmusic
06. Iris anei_no_tsuki
07. Milou larosenocturne
08. Suus suuko
09. Renate ludivine_noir
10. Denise niesje7002
11. Josephine petit_cupcake
12. Marieke 2710
13. Jeanette talene309
14. Franck tenshin26100
15. Luna (cat :P)
16. Phoebus (cat :P)
17. Belle (dog :P)
18. Mom
19. Dad
20. Gackt
21. Gackt's boobies

( Over here. )

Yesterday I was in the Efteling with es_chan~

The Efteling is a multiple awardwinning Dutch themepark based around classic fairytales intertwined with themes from Dutch folklore and history, that first opened its doors in 1952, when it was still a playground next to the Fairytale Forest; a route that takes you past real-life depictions of many Grimm fairytales as well as others, with lots of designs by Dutch artist Anton Pieck. It's said that Walt Disney himself once came to the Fairytale Forest to look for inspiration for his themepark in the USA.
The Efteling is one of the most popular attractions in Holland for both the Dutch and tourists, worldfamous for its attention to detail and preservation of nature.

( It's epic. )

When I came home yesterday my parents told me that they'd be leaving the next day for a short holiday in Brugge, Belgium. They'll be back sometime Friday.
They left a while ago so now it's just me and the kitties here, since they dropped Belle off at a pet pension. I hate, HATE being alone. D:

I just read that Michael will be buried 17:00 Dutch time. The memorial will be broadcasted live as well, around 18:00 I think. *sigh* It still makes me sad, really..

I hate the instances that stand for the bureaucracy of higher education in the Netherlands. IB-group, Studielink... totally worthless.

It's taking me days just to get enrolled in a school. And I haven't even been in contact with the school yet, it all goes through a third party.

I really want to get this over with.


Next monday I'm going to the Efteling with es_chan!!

EDIT: I KILLED A SNAKE.



LOL I wish my arms were that tanned. But it's just the sunlight coming from behind me.
I'm still as pale as I was before I went to Japan. DDD: